The 3rd video of my ESCAPE EP is out! -> check on Youtube
This was the last release connected to the spiritual relationship that changed my life and I'm excited to share this with you.
“Closure" is an intimate digital farewell to a lover that confronted me with the dark side of my drug-addled past. The difficult but cathartic demise of a relationship that pushed me to purge those destructive patterns from my soul.
I've dealt with addiction for a long period of my life and since 2012 I've been changing my life. This relationship helped me to get rid of the last bits.
To read more about the relationship and my personal story with addiction; please go check out older blogs below😁 If you want to read even more, Redefine mag just did an amazing review on the ESCAPE EP, couldn't have said it better myself
ESCAPE EP is out!This EP was written during a very intense and spiritual relationship in 2017/2018. You can read about it in my last 2 blogs about Hardest Storm and Both Ways.Initially the EP only had 4 tracks. I was already working on the videos Both Ways and Hardest Storm but it felt like the story wasn’t completed yet. I had to find out what I was meaning to tell with this work but I could only close it after I gave that relationship closure. I already found out the whole experience was a mirror for me to grow and learn but it actually really changed my reality. Not only did I close that chapter with this person but also what was mirrored to me during it; my own battle with addiction.I’ve been struggling with addiction for a long time. After 10 years of heavy use of hard drugs, I turned my life around back in 2012. It was really difficult because I built my whole life around that lifestyle. I honestly had the belief that I wouldn’t get to the age of 40 and I was fine with that. You could say I was leading a highly self destructive life, a never ending escape of reality. After quitting in 2012, the real battle began. I had multiple relapses because I was spiritually awakening and the fact that I couldn’t handle the ‘real life’. I started feeling a lot of emotions connected to childhood trauma which I kept running away from for all those years. I got mentally and physically very sick and for 7 years I had to go through heavy detoxes, therapies and healings. That spiritual relationship pushed me through to release those last inner demons. I am forever thankful for that.
“The EP, ‘ESCAPE’, tells the story of how Giek_1’s spiritual awakening lines up with the different stages in a romantic relationship. Both of these things can bring past trauma to the surface, and act as a mirror to the self. The only way to progress is to heal from these hurts and grow as a person.
‘ESCAPE’ is about escaping reality, not wanting to face the real world because of what it might reveal about oneself. Escaping from the conflict and struggle. Escaping the destruction. But perhaps this destruction is caused by all of this escapism.”Threshold Magazine: "Giek_1's new album paints recollections of Eartheater's more recent work, FKA Twigs and Chromatics with its many sound manipulations and layers. The voice plays a crucial role in creating the plurality of Giek_1 with its many materialisations in pure stereo delight. "
Yeah I Know it Sucks: "Welcome in a realm of XTC energy, a temple that offers protections from demons, one in which love seems to prevail and the thick electric heart beats pounce around like a pleasant kick in the butt."
"This world is really like instantly stepping through the wardrobe and being let immediately somewhere in the glittery glam of a royal space filled with shiny ice sculptures that on their own would Magic up rainbows and sunflowers, things that normally wouldn’t make any sense, but in a shiny glassy zone in which a powerful mind rules with its enriched spiritual freedom it somehow certainly does. You will eventually forget the outside world and the so called ‘other’ reality."
"Now there is no reason to get mashed up at a rave, no need to go to that next level that makes you unable to walk straight at a after party; you can just sit back, relax and escape within this zone that Giek_1 has cooked up!"
Couvre x Chefs: "As the confusing turmoil of 2020 coincides with an intensifying shift towards a new spiritual age worldwide, between people too, these two contrasting realities can touch each other. Relationships can be the ultimate, intimate confrontation with healing processes inside oneself, coming back via the other person. Escape is the story of such intimate confrontation, a learning process in the liminal tunnel moving in between the unhealed and the healed paradigm through love."
Hardest Storm 🌪️🌊
“Hardest Storm” is about the extreme shift in consciousness I had during a spiritual relationship I’ve experienced. We were both drifting away in different directions, but through it all we were still able to connect to one another. The track is about letting go of your old skin and ego and accepting change in order to grow.
Watch video 🌀
“send me in the wildest sand
send me in that summer rain
I feel that you and me
are dreamers of our land
of our own skin
Well I see I
will be peeling off that skin
until completely naked
In the center of the Earth
I wrote this EP during the most turbulent phase of the relationship Watch a video I made during the writing process
It was a very healing experience for me at that time. I was floating in and out of another dimension while I was awakening to my higher self more and more each day.
Read more about this intense relationship in my last blog about ‘Both Ways’
Hardest Storm is produced by Frenquency. The video was shot and directed by Johan Nieuwenburg
Write ups:Pretty in NoiseSynthpoploverFaeton Music Blog
💋Both Ways video out 💋With Both Ways I’m showing a turbulent phase in a highly spiritual relationship I had around two years ago, which completely changed my life. Like most people of our generation, we first met online. Not via a dating app but via Facebook, because a mutual friend had shown them some of my music when they met in Berlin. The connection already seemed to be there and once we found each other online the rollercoaster started. I was in a very unstable phase of my life. Trying to crawl back up from yet another relapse. Suffocating with depression and fatigue. In those periods of my life I was sure that being with someone would fill that hole. Watch video 💙💦
Relationships on a spiritual level can bring so much joy because the connection is way stronger and seems to be present in multiple dimensions. The first time I experienced this was two years ago with this person I’m writing about. And because they lived in Berlin while I was living in Amsterdam, we weren’t able to see or hold each other very often. But sometimes you are so connected that you can actually feel that person laying next to you and hold you, even while they are in another country.
It wasn’t all joy and being in love...Because our souls supposedly had to meet in this life in order to grow, we kinda got sucked into a sequence of uncontrollable emotions, due to past trauma coming to the surface and acting as a mirror to the self. And because we were both unprepared to go through this together, a never ending cycle of attraction and rejection began. This eventually led to the demise of the relationship.
Both Ways is the first single (and first out of 3 videos) of the upcoming EP, ‘ESCAPE’, where I tell the story of how my spiritual awakening lines up with the different stages in a romantic relationship I was going through. Both of these things can bring past trauma to the surface, and act as a mirror to the self. The only way to progress is to heal from these hurts and grow as a person.
‘ESCAPE’ is about escaping reality, not wanting to face the real world because of what it might reveal about oneself. Escaping from the conflict and struggle. Escaping the destruction. But perhaps this destruction is caused by all of this escapism.
"While we wait for ESCAPE, Both Ways creates an enticing and addictive appetite for more of Giek_1's seamless blend of good, compelling music and hypnotic visuals."—Treshold Magazine—"The lead single is the tranquilized dreampop of 'Both Ways', which addresses the turbulent stage of a relationship where "a never ending cycle of attraction and rejection... eventually turns terminal.""—MusicMap—
Both Ways is produced by Frenquency. The video was shot by Het Shot.
Write ups:MusicMapPW Magazine premiereThreshold Magazine3voor12 UtrechtGlamglareMusikassirdsMishkadj
I won't bite.Whole my life I've been treated differently because of the way I look. Yeah I might look or act "weird" (authentic that is) but I'm still human like all of u (well I'm actually from Orion experiencing Earth and human life for some centuries 🤫). At one point I was walking down the street to go to an appointment looking kinda savage (💜). Some rando asked me if I just walked out of an after party and I replied that I just went to yoga feeling really balanced (cuz I just went to yoga and felt really balanced) .. Made him so confused 🤣. Love doing that tbh.So yeah. Stop judging. 🧚♂️ 📸 Clefw PhotographyTo stay updated please subscribe to my mailinglist (and get a free download of 'Ascending'!)
💜💙💚Health&power appreciation post💚💙💜Many of u might know that I've had a pretty intense past.. 10 years of heavy drugs use and after quitting (theater school got me out and pretty much saved my life <3 ) I got really ill. Since 2012 I was trying to turn my life around but that wasn't easy at all.. Next to having all the buried and stuck emotions coming up after all those years, I got physically really sick because my former lifestyle kinda fucked up my detox system. It wasn't working normally anymore and I was drowning in depression, extreme fatigue and basically feeling really shitty the whole time. Turns out your liver is kinda really important.. 😅So 7 years of struggling, relapses, spiritual awakening and different kinds of therapies and healings later I've grown and learned so much! On top of that I met this amazing doctor who got everything working again and obviously I also had to work realllllyyy hard on my mind set. But now, another year later, I'm full of energy, happy and balanced!I'm standing in my power! I am strong and healthy! I have the most amazing acting job (playing a troubled inmate at Prison Escape Breda and coming weekend first time at Prison Escape Doetinchem as a guard 😁) and from March on I'm gonna releaseee soooo much musiiiic (theme: escapism 👀) y'all be freaking out 🤪My life started in full escapism mode but this whole path I had to take on Earth was all suppose to happen in order to become the person I am now and to spread my message with the talents I got this lifetime.I am SO READY for what's about to come!!! ☄️Fucking LOVE the universe and divine timing xoxo❤️🧡💛💚💙💜(Picture by Clefw Photography)To stay updated please subscribe to my mailinglist (and get a free download of 'Ascending'!)
Straight edge and proud!My life has changed so much since I'm sober.. It was a long long road but I'm glad I took it otherwise I might not have been here anymore.. I needed 7 years (with a lot of relapses) to heal my pains mentally and physically. Lot of trauma and blockades I had to get rid of in order to be where I am now but it feels damn good to be sober and balanced! To stay updated please subscribe to my mailinglist (and get a free download of 'Ascending'!)
Artwork by Gergo Kovacs
Spiritual Ecology Trilogy part 1: Longing is out! With this artwork I address the connection between human escapism and the dying of our beautiful Earth. The video was premiered on Felt Zine on the 1st of October. And can be seen on Youtube, Facebook or IGTV.Also got a premiere on INSERT with one of the other tracks of the latest EP. Check ASCENDING here. -"‘Ascending’ is the EP’s dramatic and glacial opener; which sees Giek_1 merge countless layers of choral vocals over a new-age Eski beat."
The video is part of a Trilogy. The two other parts will be out in 2020. All videos contain tracks from the latest EP release 'TWISTED TRANSCENDENCE' which premiered at Threshold Magazine on the 13th of October and can be checked on all platforms. "The more we listen to it, the more we become detached and entranced in this TWISTED TRANSCENDENCE. The eerie vocals of giek_1 create an irreverent tapestry that inevitably recreates echoes from Eartheater's phenomenal and seminal work IRISIRI, while the ambitious post-industrial and peppy production will certainly attract those who, such as myself, have become infatuated by the recent trend of deconstructed club that artists such as Arca, SOPHIE, Amnesia Scanner and Vessel helped create. The post-human touches that form the narrative for this work are likely to also resonate with those who have been following Holly Herndon's journey into music at the border between human and machine."
ALSO UPCOMINGThe EP TWISTED TRANSCENDENCE is the first of 6 EP's and 15 videos which I will be releasing over the next 6-9 months.All of them are connected to themes of escapism, hope, the search for self, destructive tendencies and spiritual growth.The work is personal and introspective but at the same time addressing contemporary currents and thematic related to the shifting of cultural paradigms.To stay updated please subscribe to my mailinglist (and get a free download of 'Ascending'!)
Write ups &radioshows
"Closure" on Glamglare [May 2020] "Closure" on Comeherfloyd [May 2020]"Closure" on Redefine Magazine [May 2020]ESCAPE EP on Couvre x Chefs [May 2020]ESCAPE EP on Yeah I Know it Sucks [May 2020]ESCAPE EP on Threshold Magazine [May 2020]'Both Ways + Hardest Storm' on At Cost Magazine'[April 2020]'Hardest Storm' on Faeton Music Blog [April 2020]'Hardest Storm' on Pretty in Noise [April 2020]'Hardest Storm' on Synthpoplover [April 2020]'Both Ways' on MusicMap [March 2020]' Both Ways' on PW Magazine premiere [March 2020]' Both Ways' on Threshold Magazine [March 2020]'Both Ways' on 3voor12 Utrecht [March 2020]'Both Ways' on Glamglare [March 2020]'Both Ways' on Mishkadj [March 2020]'Both Ways' on Musikassirds [March 2020]'Epicureanism 19:19 [Nov 2019]'Ascending' on Insert [Okt 2019]'TWISTED TRANSCENDENCE' on Threshold Magazine [Okt 2019]'Midheaven Pisces' on UNIZONE [May 2019]'Ascending' on Sound Extremism [May 2019]'Borders' at NTS radio [July 2018]'Lost in reality' on Soulfeeder [April 2018]Humans of film Amsterdam [Nov 2017]'URL' on Generation Basss [July 2017] 'A/S/L' on Dark Entries [July 2017]'URL' on Homeostasis Lab [July 2017]
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